Loud Solitaire

Have you ever feel lonely in the midst of crowd and noise? Have you ever been alone in a time and place but your mind utter outloud?

Ada saat aku duduk sendirian tanpa keinginan berbuat apapun.

Biasanya itulah saat aku merasa capai sekali di badan (ah, enak sekali membayangkan dipijat mbok tua di Jakarta), tapi otakku menolak tidur. Seperti malam-malam di musim panas: matahari enggan tenggelam hingga jam sembilan, walau makan malam sudah lama selesai. Aku jadi teringat teman lamaku, yang bilang saat-saat seperti ini paling enak main Solitaire. Sendirian, nggak pakai kegiatan fisik kecuali menggerakkan mouse, sambil duduk selonjoran, terkadang ditemani secangkir kopi. Tapi yang paling penting: pikiran bisa melayang kemana-mana, karena game ini nggak butuh banyak-banyak pakai otak.

Ternyata nggak juga: Solitaire games, also known as Patience in Britain, are card games for a single player. Does not exist a precise history of solitaires, but it is probable that solitaires are been born with the card games. The word solitaire is of french origin, and it means patience. It must but wait for the age of Napoleon (is said Napoleon to have played a lot of solitaire) to see a true development of the solitaire games.

Aku jadi sedikit angkat topi buat game yang dulunya ternyata dipakai buat latihan otak sang Napoleon. Bahkan ada yang bilang: "Everybody should cultivate the power of self entertainment. No matter what may be our domestic and social surroundings there come times to each of us when, unless we are able to be 'company to ourselves', we must inevitably suffer from loneliness or ennui. It is at such moments that the game of Solitaire (to which our English cousins give the very significant name of Patience) becomes something much more than a frivolous diversion." (George Hapgood, Solitaire and Patience, Philadelphia, 1917)

Terkadang kita merasa sendirian, walau di tempat riuh. Terkadang kita memang sendirian, tapi otak kita begitu riuh. Terkadang kita bisa "menemani diri sendiri", terkadang kita tidak bisa ditinggal sendirian.

Aku punya jenis solitari yang berisik, dan aku pilih blog ini jadi wujud yang menemani aku.